Proverbs 25:9-10, “Debate thy cause with thy neighbour himself; and discover not a secret to another:  Lest he that heareth it put thee to shame, and thine infamy turn not away.”

I remember sitting in a meeting some time ago and being told that none of my co-workers had any confidence in my ability to perform my duties.  Wow!  That was like someone hitting me in the gut with a baseball bat.  I nearly passed out as my legs got weak and I know that I wobbled a little.  That hurt tremendously!  I tried not to be arrogant or prideful; but, I did feel confident in my ability to perform my job.  I did not always perform up to the best; but, I felt that I was able.  I guess not.

The biggest thing to me was not the fact that every one of my co-workers had lost confidence in me.  It was the fact that none of them were adult enough to come to me and tell me how they felt.  The sense of betrayal  wasf enormous.  I had even asked supervisors how I was doing.  To which I was told, “Hang in there buddy.  You’re doing fine.”  Either these persons did not know or they were just comforting me to get me through until it was hatchet time in the office.

I was so humiliated that I eventually resigned after letting this eat me alive from the inside out.  Now, I wish I had stayed and made them fire me so I could get unemployment.  I tried to do what I felt was honorable and all I received was a kick in the teeth every time I turned around.  I am; however, getting over the fact that nobody had the intestinal fortitude to come to me and tell me like it is.  Such is life.  I will keep trying to lovingly tell others how it is in hopes that they come to faith in Christ.

So, how are you doing?

Today’s reading:  Jeremiah 43, 44, 45; Psalm 25, 55, 85, 115, 145; Proverbs 25